This blog is called Jess Witkins’s Happiness Project. You probably come here for tips on happiness, or to laugh at the stupid things I do in attempt to achieve it, thereby making yourself feel better about life. That is fine.

But sometimes, I’m not happy.

**SPOILER ALERT**

Sometimes I’m pissed off or stressed out or emotionally unstable. Often when I’m hungry. Which is why my fiance thinks I need this shirt…

I think my writer pal, Myndi Shafer, said it best:

Life is fucking hard.

Myndi wrote an honest blog post about feeling low in life, and I’m so glad she did, because I needed to hear that I wasn’t alone.

I’m known for being a really positive person and finding the humor in situations out of one’s control. But recently, it feels like everything is out of control. Which is scary because I’m a control freak!

We all go through chapters in our lives where things are out of balance or in transition. I just happen to be dealing with a few big ones all at once.

I don’t know about you guys, but I seem to be placing my coping skills in the weirdest of places too. For example, I feel like I have no control over the things in my life, so I’ve taken to controlling my fiance’s. Specifically, his healthcare.

Here are things I said in the last week that I never thought I would say. Ever.

–“You should floss tonight. We ate poppyseeds.”

-“Did you take more echincea? You really should if your throat is sore.”

-“I told you NOT TO BLOW YOUR NOSE SO HARD! You’re inflaming your nasal passages! God!”

Bless his congested little heart for putting up with me.

I know things will get better. My brain cells tell me this is so. But my soul is still unsure and spends way too much time worrying.

Know what I mean?

P.S. Free vitamins and neti pots all around.